I never want to
Wow. So long since
Sunday, June 13, 2010 / 4:45 AM ♥
I've written (or blogged) here.
It feels weird. I'm reading my stuff and saying ot myself "Wow you're absolutely dramatic". Well yes I am. Thank You very much. I only write when there are issues that cannot be absolved. I can't randomly start a conversation and talk about how miserable I am. Well maybe I can but you know... A little pride here and there... People never realize when they need help. Well anyway I'm incriminating myself as one who does need help but with a difference so there. I'm not perfect I do get sad sometimes and people do hurt. However, I don'tgo around cutting myself or bashing people's heads in the wall - I am expressing my sadness in other means :Writing.
But that's on top of all the other things I do. Like... Playing music.. Writing music... Carrying weights... Just kidding but you get the drift. I realized staying still makes you think a lot on what could have been rather than what could be changed. Oh Wow Philosophical much! Anyway there are a lot of people I owe my happiness to but for today I should just mention one Cuiying.
Ahahaha yes I'm absolutely idolizing her just like all the other guys that drool around. No not really. I shoud thank her for always helping out. She's straightforward and often makes me feel like my problems aren't even problems! There was one thing in particular that really inspired me 5 stages of Grieving. Wow I'm getting cornier everyday I swear. So anyway 5 stages of grieving composes of Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance.
I have to say, grieving about a loved one pretty much follows all these steps.
Denial. It took me 4months to realizethat my special someone was really gone. 6 months after our apparent "break up" (after numerous times of calling them) They finally turned back and told me what exactly happened. Cause as you would expect, I don't deal with "We can't be in this relationship anyore".
The second stage: Anger, umm.. I guess at this spot I'll have to say I ran 40 times around my back yard did 100 cycles on the rowing thing, 300 skips 50 push ups and 50 sit ups... I guess for what I was doing I think I had a little eating disorder. I was so conscious of why that person didn't love me and went out and lost 15 kilo's in total. I felt so faint at cross country and athletics carnival... I didn't as well as I should have thought and went more into pushing myself until I felt faint. I stayed up late ad slept in through the day. Seeing you at school was a total ass. Seeing you hurt so much. And I bet your'e reading this and you're laughing your head off at how much I need you. Laugh b*tch. I don't care.
Bragaining. "Everyone bargains over a loss in some way, trying to somehow regain what they've lost." What have I lost? MY everything. My one to talk to about everything, my I love you's till 2 am. Yes I'm being dramatic again. There's actually parts to where I bargained. The first is when I went and lied about all these relaitonships and connections I had with drugs and etc to my "ex". I wanted them to care for me. I wanted them back. I wanted to show how much of a total wreck I was without them. Ahaha Lol. YEs I'm a genious aren't I?
After a few months of being a wreck I asked myself :How hard it is to find someone else? This is where you have what you call "replacements" or "rebounds" and probably to some extent... "fwb's". Was it a good idea? Yes and.. No. At elast I was thinking about some other thing other than my misery. But it did ruin quite a few great friendhsips. What started out as be genuine care turned out to be a competition on who was more "committed". Calling each other became systemmatic and "I love you" became a word used to drown out arguements. I mean what kind of person does not back down when someone says I love you? It was straining and pressuring. It was over within a month.
4th step: Oh wow. After all that we still haven't reached the worst? Well wait is over here it is-Depression. Sounds so bad doesn't it? Doesn't sound as bad as crying to sleep everytime you sleep and everytime you wake up hoping after all this your ex might somehow... Because he loves you know you are sad and miserable and come back. Wipe away your tears, offer a shoulder and say that they're sorry for everythig and for not being there....
Some fantasy. I'm not going to advertise myself as "Hey everyone! I have depression! Have tissues at hand just in case.. or stay away from me I'll get spaz attack and start crying."
And that was probably the hardest thing about it. I had to be strong cause I am strong. And I've nly ever cried 5 times 3 times without anyone noticing. Actually, no I'm not strong. This really hurt and I needed someone. And that someone is going to be my Ex. I know it I know it.
That went on for so long. Longer than I can probably remember. SOmetimes I'd go to parks with friends or out to the city.. or even in the train... I'd just feel so bad inside cause I know they're not there. And while I'm here miserable they're probably somewhere enoying life. When I found something fun and start to see things that make me happy..I.. " almost feel guilty when I laugh or enjoy something because the one I lost isn't there."
I am overprotective of my grief. It's mine. And As much as it's killing me, I want it I don't want to let it go. Cause letting t go would mean letting you go and I don't want that.......
Acceptance. The final stage of grieving. Have I reached this? Maybe I am too positively affirming, or the overdued standing of my old enemy pride is telling me, "Yes you have accepted. You have undergone all the stages of grieving...That is how you are feeling happy now." But the latter is saying, "If you have accepted, why has writing this evoked some form of emotion?", "Why do you still think about that person?" And I have no answer for that. I can only accept. Loss is a part of life. A part of life? How can I say that when all I've ever knows was winning? I guess with that said, it's unnatural to relate to how parallel that is to my recent attitude to my studies. Absolute neglect. My maths for example, I've studied it, I know the chapters by heart, the concepts yet I block out all logical voices and settle for less: I refuse to do this test to my fullest capability. Why? Because I know it is not perfect. Yet this feeling of failure... It feels......
How ironic. Not trying cause I know there will be mistakes? Or because I want to feel loss? Or is it cause I'm plain stupid?
Confused? Yeah so I am. I don't think I'm up to acceptance yet. But I'm happy to anounce I am in the transition. And I am happy of my progress. I am in year 11, currently dealing with the stress and pressures of highschool in all three recognised areas; academic, cultural, sporting and as a more unrecognised school recreation , Social- It's not easy. (And this is where my modesty plays) But I am who I am, I can deal with it. Everyone can deal with it. It's the way that you do it that makes a difference. I prefer to write like this, then flow my love to all the people around me. I don't know why people opt frowning faces when smiling ones are so much better. "Better to be a grinning idiot, than the emo." I love my friends my family, and all those who've been there all the way. (I feel like rhyming..) And thank you for making my sky seem not-grey. Aahaha. Lol =] And to you for taking the time to read. Take it away...
I spent how long writing this urgh!
And I have an Extension English due!
Goodnight<3
Counsellor
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 / 12:53 AM ♥
So I went to counsellor the other day to find out... There was nothing wrong with me.
March 15 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010 / 2:55 AM ♥
I don't know with you but I've recently discovered anger. Yeah I've seen it and maybe I've felt it... but letting it out?
I'm a very controlled person... oblivious to dire situations... which makes my reaction quicker than the rest when anticipating and increases my ability to reason effectively.
Today, I yelled twice.
Twice.
Yes it's a big deal.
I am easily aggravated and annoyed and have a tendency to fiddle with things, people and etc..
After much thought and embarrassment... I self evaluated.
Then I realized it was all because of one thing.
Energy.
Energy I used to spend on thinking about my special someone Energy I used to spend on thinking when I'll next talk to them Energy I used to spend on thinking ways to be with them. Energy I used to spend on Being with them. Communicating... Making special things...
Now
They're gone.
And I'm left with all this... energy... (well really I should call it obsessive energy)
And I have nothing/no one to spend it on.
Seriously. This even makes me think that because I'm so obsessive I am virtually incapable of making friendships for fear they will turn into relationships.
So I'm alone.
Next thing to do when you're miserable. Let it out. I thought if I let my inner thoughts get its way, it will somewhat disappear... Still waiting.... waiting.. waiting....
So they look at me like I'm a depressed, angry, manic, bipolar...
And what am I supposed to say?
"Hi. Yeah. Get lost I broke up with my ex. And even though its been a year now I'm still not over them so leave me be or I'll kick your ass."
So anyway, I found this guy ... He's really random ... and it was an absolute big step. This turned out to be great cause 1) It's next to impossible I'll fall in love with him. 2) No love means no attraction.
My first friendship since I broke up. WOoooo! So proud.
It lasted two days until everyone decided we were married.
So now its back to start.
I don't know whether its my fault or is it just cause of high school pressure. Like the center of everything has to be gossips and gossips are either about fights or relationships and they equate to people getting hurt or whatever. That was a mouthful. Cause really I don't care.
I know that by the end of this all, I will be back to the normal person I was. I surfed through high school I can surf again. Healing process is just taking way too long.
Lil' Rain- Adore you
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 / 1:21 PM ♥
Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Verse 1:
I've not the faintest idea,why arent u talkin to me I'm trynna be the perfect man, u always want me to be I'm accustomed to u , ur a part of my life Everything I told u honey, I've nothin' to hide Ur my little angel, your my little star I'm still waitin' every hour, your so close to my heart All my life I've been waitin', for one moment in time We're together I adore your eyes, I so adore your sweet smile (girl)
I dont give a damn about what somebody told I will ever be your man cause baby I love you If the worse comes to the worst , I'm gonna hold you I feel ur far from believin' it
Prechorus: We walk through a world where nobody has been before turn back the hands of time open every door I swear I will allay your doubts and sure I love you more to retrieve your affinity
Chorus: Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Verse Two: You look into my eyes, put me out of my misery I have never told lies, I hope that you come back to me I want to spend my time of lovin' you forever No matter what happens, we must stick together Come on trust in ma words, give me your heart back again Kiss my lips, touch my hand, give me a second chance My heart is pumpin',have a feeling that I've never felt, If I'm allowed to be with u, the luck is comin' to my world So far as I remember , you was perfectly happy To find someone like me, in a world full of traffic I fulfill ur dreams, its not only taffy Your the only one for me
We walk through a world where nobody has been before turn back the hands of time open every door I swear I will allay ur doubts 'n sure I love u more 2 retrieve ur affinity
Chorus: Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Every day, day, day, day Every night , night , night , night Every day, day, day, day Every night , night , night, night I wanna see u baby (every day, day, day,day) stayin' by my side Every day, day, day, day Every night, night, night, night Every day, day, day, day Every night, night, night, night I'll be crossing to you
Someday We'll Know
Saturday, February 20, 2010 / 10:06 PM ♥
Verse1: Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving I don’t know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Chorus:
Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Verse 2:
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I’m speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight
Chorus:
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah?
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you....
Open up the world
Verse 3:
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I can ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me tonight?
Chorus:
Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you.... Labels: Lyrics
Worry wart
Friday, February 19, 2010 / 1:51 AM ♥
I worry about things I can't understand I worry about things I can't change I worry about people who are sad I worry about people who have problems I worry that I won't be able to help everyone I worry that I'm not good enough I worry about people who are poor I worry about people who are rich I worry about people who are unhealthy I worry about people who are healthy I worry about people who are dying I worry about people dying I worry about all my friends I worry about everyone who is NOT my friend I worry about not being able to meet your expectations I worry about meeting your expectations I worry about how you have to meet expectations I worry about your state of mind I worry about doing things wrong I worry about saying sorry I worry about saying don't worry I worry about fixing my worries...
So ... what exactly are you doing about all your worries?
WORRY about them. Labels: Pessimist
You're stupid
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 / 4:35 AM ♥
Omg. You're stupid and you'll never understand. But that's okay, everyone has blonde moments ^^ Labels: Note to you
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Hi my name is disclosed
But you can call me Jp for today.
On the surface things are shiny.
The past can hurt sometimes.
But hey, advantages are...
You have half the idea of the hell people are going through.
When you lose people
you realize how important every moment is.
Every person.
What would you have done differently if you got to relive that moment.
Enough questions.. Don't you have a life to live? Make your mark(:
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Wow. So long since
Sunday, June 13, 2010 / 4:45 AM ♥
I've written (or blogged) here.
It feels weird. I'm reading my stuff and saying ot myself "Wow you're absolutely dramatic". Well yes I am. Thank You very much. I only write when there are issues that cannot be absolved. I can't randomly start a conversation and talk about how miserable I am. Well maybe I can but you know... A little pride here and there... People never realize when they need help. Well anyway I'm incriminating myself as one who does need help but with a difference so there. I'm not perfect I do get sad sometimes and people do hurt. However, I don'tgo around cutting myself or bashing people's heads in the wall - I am expressing my sadness in other means :Writing.
But that's on top of all the other things I do. Like... Playing music.. Writing music... Carrying weights... Just kidding but you get the drift. I realized staying still makes you think a lot on what could have been rather than what could be changed. Oh Wow Philosophical much! Anyway there are a lot of people I owe my happiness to but for today I should just mention one Cuiying.
Ahahaha yes I'm absolutely idolizing her just like all the other guys that drool around. No not really. I shoud thank her for always helping out. She's straightforward and often makes me feel like my problems aren't even problems! There was one thing in particular that really inspired me 5 stages of Grieving. Wow I'm getting cornier everyday I swear. So anyway 5 stages of grieving composes of Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance.
I have to say, grieving about a loved one pretty much follows all these steps.
Denial. It took me 4months to realizethat my special someone was really gone. 6 months after our apparent "break up" (after numerous times of calling them) They finally turned back and told me what exactly happened. Cause as you would expect, I don't deal with "We can't be in this relationship anyore".
The second stage: Anger, umm.. I guess at this spot I'll have to say I ran 40 times around my back yard did 100 cycles on the rowing thing, 300 skips 50 push ups and 50 sit ups... I guess for what I was doing I think I had a little eating disorder. I was so conscious of why that person didn't love me and went out and lost 15 kilo's in total. I felt so faint at cross country and athletics carnival... I didn't as well as I should have thought and went more into pushing myself until I felt faint. I stayed up late ad slept in through the day. Seeing you at school was a total ass. Seeing you hurt so much. And I bet your'e reading this and you're laughing your head off at how much I need you. Laugh b*tch. I don't care.
Bragaining. "Everyone bargains over a loss in some way, trying to somehow regain what they've lost." What have I lost? MY everything. My one to talk to about everything, my I love you's till 2 am. Yes I'm being dramatic again. There's actually parts to where I bargained. The first is when I went and lied about all these relaitonships and connections I had with drugs and etc to my "ex". I wanted them to care for me. I wanted them back. I wanted to show how much of a total wreck I was without them. Ahaha Lol. YEs I'm a genious aren't I?
After a few months of being a wreck I asked myself :How hard it is to find someone else? This is where you have what you call "replacements" or "rebounds" and probably to some extent... "fwb's". Was it a good idea? Yes and.. No. At elast I was thinking about some other thing other than my misery. But it did ruin quite a few great friendhsips. What started out as be genuine care turned out to be a competition on who was more "committed". Calling each other became systemmatic and "I love you" became a word used to drown out arguements. I mean what kind of person does not back down when someone says I love you? It was straining and pressuring. It was over within a month.
4th step: Oh wow. After all that we still haven't reached the worst? Well wait is over here it is-Depression. Sounds so bad doesn't it? Doesn't sound as bad as crying to sleep everytime you sleep and everytime you wake up hoping after all this your ex might somehow... Because he loves you know you are sad and miserable and come back. Wipe away your tears, offer a shoulder and say that they're sorry for everythig and for not being there....
Some fantasy. I'm not going to advertise myself as "Hey everyone! I have depression! Have tissues at hand just in case.. or stay away from me I'll get spaz attack and start crying."
And that was probably the hardest thing about it. I had to be strong cause I am strong. And I've nly ever cried 5 times 3 times without anyone noticing. Actually, no I'm not strong. This really hurt and I needed someone. And that someone is going to be my Ex. I know it I know it.
That went on for so long. Longer than I can probably remember. SOmetimes I'd go to parks with friends or out to the city.. or even in the train... I'd just feel so bad inside cause I know they're not there. And while I'm here miserable they're probably somewhere enoying life. When I found something fun and start to see things that make me happy..I.. " almost feel guilty when I laugh or enjoy something because the one I lost isn't there."
I am overprotective of my grief. It's mine. And As much as it's killing me, I want it I don't want to let it go. Cause letting t go would mean letting you go and I don't want that.......
Acceptance. The final stage of grieving. Have I reached this? Maybe I am too positively affirming, or the overdued standing of my old enemy pride is telling me, "Yes you have accepted. You have undergone all the stages of grieving...That is how you are feeling happy now." But the latter is saying, "If you have accepted, why has writing this evoked some form of emotion?", "Why do you still think about that person?" And I have no answer for that. I can only accept. Loss is a part of life. A part of life? How can I say that when all I've ever knows was winning? I guess with that said, it's unnatural to relate to how parallel that is to my recent attitude to my studies. Absolute neglect. My maths for example, I've studied it, I know the chapters by heart, the concepts yet I block out all logical voices and settle for less: I refuse to do this test to my fullest capability. Why? Because I know it is not perfect. Yet this feeling of failure... It feels......
How ironic. Not trying cause I know there will be mistakes? Or because I want to feel loss? Or is it cause I'm plain stupid?
Confused? Yeah so I am. I don't think I'm up to acceptance yet. But I'm happy to anounce I am in the transition. And I am happy of my progress. I am in year 11, currently dealing with the stress and pressures of highschool in all three recognised areas; academic, cultural, sporting and as a more unrecognised school recreation , Social- It's not easy. (And this is where my modesty plays) But I am who I am, I can deal with it. Everyone can deal with it. It's the way that you do it that makes a difference. I prefer to write like this, then flow my love to all the people around me. I don't know why people opt frowning faces when smiling ones are so much better. "Better to be a grinning idiot, than the emo." I love my friends my family, and all those who've been there all the way. (I feel like rhyming..) And thank you for making my sky seem not-grey. Aahaha. Lol =] And to you for taking the time to read. Take it away...
I spent how long writing this urgh!
And I have an Extension English due!
Goodnight<3
Counsellor
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 / 12:53 AM ♥
So I went to counsellor the other day to find out... There was nothing wrong with me.
March 15 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010 / 2:55 AM ♥
I don't know with you but I've recently discovered anger. Yeah I've seen it and maybe I've felt it... but letting it out?
I'm a very controlled person... oblivious to dire situations... which makes my reaction quicker than the rest when anticipating and increases my ability to reason effectively.
Today, I yelled twice.
Twice.
Yes it's a big deal.
I am easily aggravated and annoyed and have a tendency to fiddle with things, people and etc..
After much thought and embarrassment... I self evaluated.
Then I realized it was all because of one thing.
Energy.
Energy I used to spend on thinking about my special someone Energy I used to spend on thinking when I'll next talk to them Energy I used to spend on thinking ways to be with them. Energy I used to spend on Being with them. Communicating... Making special things...
Now
They're gone.
And I'm left with all this... energy... (well really I should call it obsessive energy)
And I have nothing/no one to spend it on.
Seriously. This even makes me think that because I'm so obsessive I am virtually incapable of making friendships for fear they will turn into relationships.
So I'm alone.
Next thing to do when you're miserable. Let it out. I thought if I let my inner thoughts get its way, it will somewhat disappear... Still waiting.... waiting.. waiting....
So they look at me like I'm a depressed, angry, manic, bipolar...
And what am I supposed to say?
"Hi. Yeah. Get lost I broke up with my ex. And even though its been a year now I'm still not over them so leave me be or I'll kick your ass."
So anyway, I found this guy ... He's really random ... and it was an absolute big step. This turned out to be great cause 1) It's next to impossible I'll fall in love with him. 2) No love means no attraction.
My first friendship since I broke up. WOoooo! So proud.
It lasted two days until everyone decided we were married.
So now its back to start.
I don't know whether its my fault or is it just cause of high school pressure. Like the center of everything has to be gossips and gossips are either about fights or relationships and they equate to people getting hurt or whatever. That was a mouthful. Cause really I don't care.
I know that by the end of this all, I will be back to the normal person I was. I surfed through high school I can surf again. Healing process is just taking way too long.
Lil' Rain- Adore you
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 / 1:21 PM ♥
Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Verse 1:
I've not the faintest idea,why arent u talkin to me I'm trynna be the perfect man, u always want me to be I'm accustomed to u , ur a part of my life Everything I told u honey, I've nothin' to hide Ur my little angel, your my little star I'm still waitin' every hour, your so close to my heart All my life I've been waitin', for one moment in time We're together I adore your eyes, I so adore your sweet smile (girl)
I dont give a damn about what somebody told I will ever be your man cause baby I love you If the worse comes to the worst , I'm gonna hold you I feel ur far from believin' it
Prechorus: We walk through a world where nobody has been before turn back the hands of time open every door I swear I will allay your doubts and sure I love you more to retrieve your affinity
Chorus: Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Verse Two: You look into my eyes, put me out of my misery I have never told lies, I hope that you come back to me I want to spend my time of lovin' you forever No matter what happens, we must stick together Come on trust in ma words, give me your heart back again Kiss my lips, touch my hand, give me a second chance My heart is pumpin',have a feeling that I've never felt, If I'm allowed to be with u, the luck is comin' to my world So far as I remember , you was perfectly happy To find someone like me, in a world full of traffic I fulfill ur dreams, its not only taffy Your the only one for me
We walk through a world where nobody has been before turn back the hands of time open every door I swear I will allay ur doubts 'n sure I love u more 2 retrieve ur affinity
Chorus: Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Everyday (day), every night (night) I wanna see you baby, stayin' by my side I'm goin' down on my, on my knees for you For your love I'd do it, for your sake, believe I do If you don't love me, why do you raise my hopes No matter what happens, I can't let you go You got it wrong, I didn't wanna hurt I wanna be all the world to you
Every day, day, day, day Every night , night , night , night Every day, day, day, day Every night , night , night, night I wanna see u baby (every day, day, day,day) stayin' by my side Every day, day, day, day Every night, night, night, night Every day, day, day, day Every night, night, night, night I'll be crossing to you
Someday We'll Know
Saturday, February 20, 2010 / 10:06 PM ♥
Verse1: Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving I don’t know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Chorus:
Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Verse 2:
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I’m speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight
Chorus:
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah?
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you....
Open up the world
Verse 3:
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I can ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me tonight?
Chorus:
Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you.... Labels: Lyrics
Worry wart
Friday, February 19, 2010 / 1:51 AM ♥
I worry about things I can't understand I worry about things I can't change I worry about people who are sad I worry about people who have problems I worry that I won't be able to help everyone I worry that I'm not good enough I worry about people who are poor I worry about people who are rich I worry about people who are unhealthy I worry about people who are healthy I worry about people who are dying I worry about people dying I worry about all my friends I worry about everyone who is NOT my friend I worry about not being able to meet your expectations I worry about meeting your expectations I worry about how you have to meet expectations I worry about your state of mind I worry about doing things wrong I worry about saying sorry I worry about saying don't worry I worry about fixing my worries...
So ... what exactly are you doing about all your worries?
WORRY about them. Labels: Pessimist
You're stupid
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 / 4:35 AM ♥
Omg. You're stupid and you'll never understand. But that's okay, everyone has blonde moments ^^ Labels: Note to you
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